POETIC VIBES


All day long words and phrases float around my mind just waiting to be put to paper, but when its time to put ink to paper and manifest into a poetic masterpiece, I can't get it right so this time I am just gonna keep it simple and real...I LOVE HIM....well dude I mean...I LOVE YOU!!!!!

THIS MORNING.....


This morning I woke up and something wasn't right...... On any other morning I would wake up with a huge smile on my face, but on this morning my smile was not there. The absence of my smile kinda made me feel like I had tunnel vision that I could not shake. So I am sitting in the bed thinking what's wrong with me where did my smile go.....It should be here but its not....What the heck is going on...I know I should be smiling because nothing drastic has happen to send my smile into hiding...There two main reasons why I smile each morning...One is the LORD has blessed me with yet another day to live life to the fullest and serve HIM...Number two is I have someone in my life who is my first and last thought of each day and makes my pulse quicken at the mere thought of him.... Knowing and having all of this my smile is still M.I.A.

So during my self reflecting moment this morning I tried to figure out where the heck had my smile went....Now to some this my seem weird or not so important...Like duh maybe you just didn't feel like smiling at the time .... But it is not that simple....My smile is my daily reminder that the best is yet to come, its like me and my smile go way back....Like graham crackers and juice boxes at snack time...So for it to be missing...It feels like I am losing myself ...Ugh where is my smile?!!!! On my drive to work , I am still trying to solve the mystery and it comes to me out of no where...Its my surrounding , my environment, that took my smile....Here in this place I can not be the me it took me so long to discover....Here in this place I am just existing not living....I only truly live in this place for moments at a time...Like when love ones to visit me....Its like I am on a vacation or break just like the visiting party...Makes know no sense but its the TRUTH.

Knowing this I know what I have to do to bring my smile back......RELOCATION IS THE KEY!!!!

I DON'T KNOW.....



You know its been a minute since I last posted on here....but I was just sitting on my couch thinking about how much I wish I was back in Dallas. So I said why not blog about it......I get like this just about every weekend when I have to entertain myself. I've been here for about 18 months and I am so ready to go, and in the past I have never had a problem relocating, but this time its different b/c I have become attached to my 5 year old nephew....and each time I think I am ready to bust a move I get really upset when I think about how it is going to effect him. Then I have everyone telling me that I need to stay to help out with my nephew in my brother's absence....but what about my happiness how can I be of any help when I am not 100%. I mean am I being selfish b/c I want to leave this place called Memphis, TN.

HI!!!

Hey there good people. I pray that all is well with you and yours as you read my random thoughts. This blog was set up for me by someone near and dear to my heart (thanks for the gift, Sunshine). At first I was a bit apprehensive about having a blog of my own even though I always get much enjoyment out of reading the blogs of others. I really don't know what this blog will consist of day to day or week to week, all I can tell you is that it will be real random, being that I am a extremely RANDOM person.